God Is Amazing
Not as I will, but as Thou wilt. Matt. 26:39. —Thoughts for the Quiet Hour
God never seems to fail me, I am struggling today with will, I am going to court in an hour, and I want my $6000 that was stolen from me, because there are so many things I could do to make life for me and my family better…. I could invest in my business and do more in the long term… But if you look back at what I just wrote I never once mentioned God, not because I forget Him, just because I struggle with letting Him rule over my life fully…
I struggle with praying for this enemy, but that is what God tells me to do so I try, I try to let God have vengeance, because this guy many need this evil (the money) in his life so that he can find God in the end, which will be Glory to God alone as I did nothing, it could teach me something I do not see yet or there are so many things that could be….
I am trying to allow God, but there are things I must do as well, I must follow through with the criminal charges against this man, so that he doesnt do this to other people as well, I need to pray for his salvation which is hard when I am in pain over what has been done.. I do ask God that His will be done, he knows my heart, he knows what is best for me, but there is still that little voice inside of me ever so quiet that says this man stole from me and I must get even, but really what right do I have, that money really is Gods, it was entrusted to my wife and I, but it really belongs to the Lord and He may need it to do His work within this mans heart…
I sit here and it all sounds so logical, but it isnt that simple, I am sure many people have struggled with praying for the enemy as I am right now, the money is gone, there is only so much I can do about that, but I can take a stand for God in this matter and follow His Son Jesus Christ in how I deal with this, I can fall on my face and say Lord if there is anyway to end this quickly as I want let it be so, but I do not pray for my will, but YOURS to be done… I need to let God’s will be done in all these matters, yes I want revenge but I am sure if I look closely at my life I am no better then this man in many ways we are both sinners are we not?
Lord you know my heart you know I struggle with the issues before me, I pray that if your will is as mine let it be done, but if not, show me so that I can be a faithful servant and a light for the world to see your love in me…
Holy Holy Holy is the Lord God Almighty
